Wednesday, September 28, 2005 - :

my nose block
breathing thru my mouth
but dun worry my breathe smells great coz i suck clorets
my job sux to the core
hope things will improve during fasting month
i made a lot of mistakes in my werk place
my lappie refused to appear number eight
err..this sucks coz most of my passwords have this no

went to Hidayah's and Hantu Kacang's bro wedding
its nice but a bit cramped
my behaviour sux i tink but never realised it
but who cares
even me myself dun give a damn
dun really favour his aunt
oh my damn kerek!
but den again, who cares!
err..
i feel terrible and sick
hate it
tell me how to earn easy money without being a whore
u noe its hard to earn $
it either your job is too heavy
or its too boring like mine
i feel like i'm dead
i cant do this job yet i'm still here...
surviving every moment
i can get out of it
but something juz stopped me frm doing so

now wat! Hantu Kacang told me maybe his werkplace will sent him to China again
worse still its the 2nd day of raye
haiz
dunno wat to say

the outing with sec frens the other dae went smoothly
with Shuddy, Linda,WaWa, Yana, Naz, Sylo, Hidayah,Izzat turning up
we ate at Pizza Hut
den take neoprint
after went out with MoMok
went to see The Myth
it was boring
sori MoMok for waiting
hehe..i noe u understand rite?hehe
ok la enuf said
wanna do some werk
pple in my house keep nagging at me
den at werk must face auntie and uncle
wat the hell
bye

~ **** EnUF sAiD ****~ 10:00 AM

Thursday, September 22, 2005 - :

damn tired. tired due to boredom.
noe wat?
the job i'm in now have no off dae
wat the hell!
haiz..totally forgot tomorrow's reunion
lazy to go actually
haiz rite after werk den
werk,werk,werk!!!
cant stand it any longer
got another job offer as admin but cant take dat job
coz its far away frm home
i dun have nice formal clothing
i dun like to wear them much either, so stuffy
and i cant sit around in an air con room
its juz too indoor for me, like jail
but watever
still reconsidering
arrghhh
i dunno
life getting suckier each day, each hour, each min

yesterday after talking to Hantu Kacang, i chatted with Blade on the phone for awhile
well its been a while since we talked
i promised him to call after my exam but too bz with job hunting (and end up in a sucky job, but its not bad lar, stop complaining lissa!)
well at first i msged to the wrong person, to raihah instead, quite embarassing
i kept on replying back w/o looking at the sender's name
hehe
ok la..till here den
very lazy and sick
haha
and broke
BROKE!!!!
God, if u want tomorrow to rain again den please, instead of water droplets shower me with lots of money!!!
-END-

~ **** EnUF sAiD ****~ 8:24 PM

Tuesday, September 20, 2005 - :

............honey??..miss dat bun dun need it now...........

~ **** EnUF sAiD ****~ 12:29 AM

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my job quite sucky
boring giler
can die
i hope bln puase nanti better
waitin for the other part timers to come
need some1 to talk to
the environment's bad, the people are bad
i dunno wat else to say
cant get along with my boss as in we rarely talk to each other
how can u treat ur worker dat way
anyway try to continue dis job
btw..juz permed my hair
it suxs too
errr....dunno wat to say

~ **** EnUF sAiD ****~ 12:24 AM

Saturday, September 17, 2005 - :

helo!haha..belo
ok now nenek and paman j is at my house chatting..and me blogging here..
juz dun wanna get involved with adult conversations..aniwae its juz boring..haha

ok let me update myself frm the day of my last shitty paper
it was sucky...all my ans were all crap
after dat went to look for Gaya's bdae prezzie
bought her an ELLE watch
hopes she likes it coz i was nearly dead searching for her stuff
sent a messenger or delivery boy to sent the gift
and who was it?..it was Nesh

the next dae went out with siti
at first we didnt noe how to start our conversation coz there's a lot to say to ea other
outside far east i met YaYA
always meet her
first at bugis den again at far east
haha
its hard to buy prezzie for Hidayah..(yea another bdae..but dun mind..hope they're all happy with the gifts)
we went to MAC and all my energy rise up when i saw the diff shades of eyeshadows
it was damn beautiful
there's blushers, compact powder, foundation, and the list went on
i was so tempted to buy
but as usual i was penniless
haha
i will buy after my pay day
yea..i will do dat
with my own earn money
sounds fun
haha

now today,
i was tricked by Hantu Kacang's mom
she showed me a necklace and said dat she wanted to meet my parents for approval to marry her son to me
oh my i was damn shocked and stressed
but thank god it was a tricked or i might say a test
i'm so relieved
cik jangan buat lagik ok
macam nak pecah otak saye tau

oh ya let me tell u bout ny interview day
hehe
i was late as usual
but it was my first interview and i was 1 1/2 hr late!!
den after making another appointment i rejected the job
haha
that lady was confident dat i will take up dat job
the pay was superb but the thing bout meeting quota scares me
so i agreed to werk in a small flower shop for the hari raye period
got the job straight away
hmm..but dunno can cope or not
but if i can sell shoes and pushed those heavy wagons, why can't i do a simple job by taking care of the flowers and the pots
i tink i can do it
mon is my first day
hope everything goes well
but frankly i sux at approaching customers
err..i always handle the stock and did the heavy jobs like stacking and rearranging
i dun mind seriously
i rather did dat then serving customer
dats why people took advantage of me the last time
but i'm quite ok with it
at least the shoe boxes cant talk back to me when i curse them and i dun need to impress dem
for me dats good enuf
customers are very fussy at times
they demand first class service at a local auntie shop
wat the hell
till den..bye
i tink it will take a month for me to update this blog again

~ **** EnUF sAiD ****~ 12:04 AM

Saturday, September 10, 2005 - :

".......Late at when all the world is sleeping I stay up and think of you..and I wish on the star dat somewhere u are thinking of me too...."
Yea its 23:45..of course not all are sleeping rite now..haha..but yea now I am thinking of someone..but I dunno who..weird huh?..keke..lately..for the past 2 months I have dis weird feeling..i'm missing some1 but I'm not sure...who is he? Or A she? Is dat u MoMok? Haha..i hope so..but the feeling is so different..makes me wanna fall in luv again..haha..wat the hell..guess some of u oredi lost..

Oh LOVE..u're weird!!haha..
okok when is the last time I felt lost and sad..
yea I remembered..it was when HAntu Kacang cannot make it here to Spore on National Day
and b4 dat, the day b4 he left Spore..
I was sad..and after dat lonely...and I messed up..but everything's fine now...
....thinking of the day that u went away..wat a life to take, wat a bond to break,I'll be missing you....
dat song kept repeating in my head..oh god I miss him so much after dat
looked cool on the outside but inside onli He knows...coz I believe he listens to my prayer every nite b4 I sleep
"...I juz wanna hold u close but so far all I have was dreams of u..."

now he's here..back in Spore...but wats dis strange funny feeling man!
So now wat?..who could I be missing now..
Lets forget about it Marlissa coz its useless..all u ever wanted is rite in front of you..dun be stupid k?
Haha..schzophrenic

Wanna hear a story about a girl next door falling in love with a guy who was serving the country? If u don't ...STOP here...keke

One day a girl name A was attending dis religious talk held in a friend's aunt crib. Den A's fren wanna msg her bro whether he's cumin home dat nite as It was Friday- book out day..As she didn't have her phone dat time she used A's phone..but instead of using her name, she make it as if A was the one msging him
So thinking A was the one making the first move he continue to msg A. A was friendly and thot it was alright to make friends with her best friend's bro. he msgs A and A replied most msgs..den A was frustrated with her long lost boyfren den turn to The Guy to relieve some tension coz A thinks its very nice to talk to him,The Guy.
Of course the guy didn't know anything about A's long lost boyfren but it doesnt matter coz A broke up officially with him after two weeks msging The Guy
Den The Guy thinks he likes A juz by msging her nearly everyday despite his busy NS schedule
He was shy to talk to A on the phone. Coz he said he sounded funny and will stammer when talking to girls.
A, is the type of girl who don't really trust people especially guys although she have a lot of guy friends
So, she dun take This Guy seriously coz she thought he's like some of the NS guys who juz felt lonely and need a timeout with girls after mixing with too much guys and they felt Gay...blah..blah...blah
Den one Day he Msg A like dis "uoyekilotgintratsami"..haha..it simply says "I am starting to like you" A was a bit shocked..but den again wats there to be shocked when some1 juz said he likes you.
He called the next day..after much courage...he sounded funny but A thought it was cute
Den he asked her out..on National Day coz dats his pay day and the only day he could go home dat week
She agreed...well she didn't feel any harm goin out with him coz afterall he's her best friend's bro..if anything happen its easier to track..but nothing happen lah
Aniwae told her mom and frens
Met him at the Challenger near A's house
When he turned around, A juz feel like running away but since A never passed her 2.4 NAFA test, she decided to just stay put
She make some weird, out of sudden question and The Guy gave her a weird stare..by dat time she could not take it anymore..but she just smile and smile..she smiles all the time..when she's feeling stress, happy, sad, angry, and of course happy
But after dat, things went smooth
A feels weird but she juz cover up by talking mostly crap
But The Guy laugh a lot..it was Funny to see him laugh at her stupid dry jokes so A laugh too.. haha
They went for a movie- the village ,and then The Guy knew something bout A's strange slow reaction when it comes to the scary part..A was embarrassed but she didn't feel humiliated cause she knew it was silly and funny..well she looks funny too..and he was not laughing at her..he was laughing with her..in the end they went out of cinema laughing like they have just watched a comedy instead
A chose an ultraman towel for him..and it was great fun in a way
Waited for the lift for half an hour without noticing the sign which says "lift broke down"
Then they actually got lost at a shopping centre..far east plaza to be specific..but they had a gr8 laugh though..they were laughing all the way till the mrt..
Something gr8 happen on the way back..at Kallang the train suddenly stopped at the track...min after dat they got to witness the fireworks..it was sweet and nice..
A loves fire works ..and she believed it was a good sign for her And The Guy...

"....so I wait for the day .to have the courage to say how much I love you..yes I do...."
"....Late at when all the world is sleeping I stay up and think of you...and I still cant believe dat u came up to me and say 'I love You'...."

~ **** EnUF sAiD ****~ 12:45 AM

Friday, September 09, 2005 - :

todae's paper was orite.. now chatting wit Raihan and dis one guy who smokes weed everyday..haha..so he was frm Damai huh? cool..keke..yea all the Damaians reunite..yucks sounds like i'm freaking semangat bout dat skool... u noe recently I chat with a few ex-damaians .. first i noe dis MR 'Know Everything' guy(yea u're smart but pls stop lying..hate liars) and he's frm Damai too..den there's Addy (nice guy)
..long story..but forgot most of it.. all I remember was..it sucks..haha..wat's in the past, juz let it pass..learnt a lot of things..but never wanna repeat it again..its so yesterday oredi...

i was damn panic in the morning...but yea my frens were helpful enuf..and maybe my lucky charm helps but cant say much k...dere's 2 more paper to go...dunno hows my luck..hope the Guy up there will give some help...
went pasar malam with MoMok..it was fun... noe wat i forgot our special date again for the 3rd or 4th time...not entirely my fault ok.. i was busy studying..haha..sori..keke
so todae he punished me...both purposely and not...
when he ate otak2, the juice suddenly sprang into my eyes..den he accidentally hit my jaw which was swelling due to the gum infection i had..den something happen but cant remember..hmm..short memory lah..

ate ice Kacang, otak2 and den vadei and masalodeh...haha oily..
mom cooked one of my fav dish..Ikan Bumbu Rojak..yum!!
i'm happy and i dunno why..love you guys who had made my day...dun care today yesterday or tomorrow..Muacks

~ **** EnUF sAiD ****~ 10:54 PM

Tuesday, September 06, 2005 - :

yesterday nothing really happend....stayed at home all day...nobody called...haiz...wat a boring day...cant study nothing was absorb..was sick and rotting away slowly..

today accompany mom to Arab St to tailor her Hari Raye suit...Dis year I chose the kain..haha..damn nice...my choice wat..but dunno how it will turn out...hope it will be nice..i dunno whether the tailor understand wat I've said..haiz..juz pray lor...hope it turn out fine or else waste my sis $(hey i will pay u back one day..hmm..but wait long2). Today was my clumsy day...kept dropping things and move clumsily...haiz...dunno wat happen to me...no appetite, no strength...gonna sit for exam dis fri..really not prepared...okla wanna read up some notes..bye!

Haiz... ya was about to read notes den must Babysit Ail, my youngest nephew...

A slit to each wrist
A stab to the throat
That familiar sense of helplessness
Our blood will show the truth

Angel we are dying
Our hands grow cold
The numbness of reality
As we slept fading away

Warm blood, crimson red
Bleeding out from cuts and gashes
This reality we were so fond of
Finally abandoned us stranded

Angel won't you come down?
The poor souls know no sins
All we wanted was a life, a purpose
But that too was robbed from us

In your tomb you lay there sleeping
Awaiting for another tomorrow

Earth angel we missed you
Fill our lives with hope again
Upon your death we wander about
Clueless in search of your light

Adapted from my Beloved Hantu Kacang

~ **** EnUF sAiD ****~ 10:43 PM

Saturday, September 03, 2005 - :

went to the doctor dis morning with dad... actually wanted to go with Hantu Kacang but suddenly dad want to accompany me...my swell spread to the next teeth, my upper teeth and my tongue...my sore throat healed two days ago..thanx to the strepsil MOmok bought for me...Love you MoMok! but the air Badak didnt werk on the swelling but thanx once again darling..the doctor told me if things didnt get better, i shud go to the dentist..but i still believe dat this is cause by infection...this doctor juz wanna see me in pain by suggesting to extract my back tooth..well it was cheap.. altogether with my medication, it onli cost me about $6..coz i'm under 18...i wanna stay young and enjoy all the half price benefits..haha..crazy me... Hantu Kacang join me aftterwards coz dad have to go to werk...after daT i went to eat some porridge... boohooo....cant enjoy nice food...but porridge is not bad....

~ **** EnUF sAiD ****~ 12:02 PM

Friday, September 02, 2005 - :

had fever the dday Before and now i woke up with a swelling gum.. met Hantu Kacang at the MRT station to pass the printer brochure that i left bhind yesterday nite...pity him must wake up in the morn but actually he's a morning person, i dun understand why..haiz wat if he got married to me..looks like he have to prepare the breakfast
well i thot he juz wanna pass me the thing but i was shocked when he carried my bag and led me to the platform...so i called Zahedah..and then went to sch with him
he bought breakfast for me...my fav old chang kee curry puff..but too bad i cant eat properly bcoz of my gum...sickening
had to stay back for CS...i was half dead when it started and nearly died when its done
went home like a Zombie...haiz...wat a tiring day.
nxt wk my first paper...haiz

~ **** EnUF sAiD ****~ 9:50 PM